So it's been over a month since I've written, again. Sorry about that. I've been ill, busy, and anxious.
I was ill with what was originally thought to be pneumonia, but turned out to be nothing more than a really nasty, clingy, forever relationship type cold/cough. (We just found out it wasn't pneumonia even though it sure felt like it!)
I was busy with the end of school for my oldest. He did amazing! He actually finished school to the very last day. We checked with him a couple of times a week to see if he was managing alright or if he wanted to be pulled out early. He was having a good time and coping with the lack of routine quite well. So proud of him. He also got promoted to Grade 4! With flying colours I might add! So now he's home for the summer.
I've been anxious because we still have no placement. We were asked about a sibling group and whether or not we could handle their special needs and were we comfortable considering a need we'd said no to. After a few days discussion we said yes. Please send us the whole proposal package. That's when the other shoe dropped. The workers of the children told us (well our worker) that they haven't even looked at our homestudy yet! They don't even know if we're the family they want for the children! Grrrr. It's so frustrating. So we're sitting here waiting to hear whether or not we're going to even get a proposal package for the children. Been a couple of weeks now. So, in the mean time if other children come along we'll view their packages. Maybe our children are still out there waiting for the right time to come forward. All in God's time. It's also been suggested that maybe I need someone to talk to. Someone who isn't familiar with our situation. Someone who can be an unbiased sounding board for me, who can help me deal with the anxiety that is perceived. I admit that I'm somewhat tense about the situation, but I do have people who help when I need to talk. People who understand the way I feel, not some total stranger whose never been in a situation similar to mine. Don't get me wrong; I'm all for counsellors. I think they are highly needed and I respect them greatly. There are times when I truly feel I need one and I seek the appropriate one. I am of the belief that for a counsellor to be effective, they need to have life experience as well as book knowledge and unfortunately with my research, I haven't found one locally who has the experience I'm looking for. But I will find one and take care of my issues. The first step is admitting there is an issue. (I won't make the exact quote because I don't have an addiction.)
So, in the last month and a bit our youngest had his 4th birthday! He's growing up so fast. He got spoiled rotten. All of our family and friends gathered for a luncheon and cake and tonnes of presents. Our boy is doing so well. I'm so proud of him too.
Well there's been a lot more things going on, but some are just too personal to share. I shared the bits I shared today to show that adoption is a long and rough road. Anyone who thinks it's all sunshine and lollipops is on glue! This isn't easy and occasionally we need help. Never be afraid to admit you need help. It's for the best.
Have a great day and God Bless!
